Meghan Markle feels she is ‘existing not living’ and appears ‘vulnerable and bruised’ new ITV documentary reveals


MEGHAN Markle feels she is “existing not living” in an emotional new ITV documentary about her and Prince Harry.

The Duchess of Sussex was close to tears as she described herself as having felt “vulnerable” while speaking about being a new mum.

Meghan Markle was on the verge of tears after describing herself as ‘vulnerable’ in a new documentary
The couple were filmed on their royal tour to Africa
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Tom Bradby, who followed the royal couple’s recent tour for ITV documentary Harry and Meghan: An African Journey has now revealed she appears “bruised”.

He wrote in The Sunday Times about being “moved to tears” at certain parts of the show, which is due to air tonight.

The news anchor said: “But I couldn’t quite shake a sense of sadness, too, at the powerful impression that this young family, happy in themselves, is struggling to adapt to life in the spotlight.

“Can you cope with this, I asked Meghan at the end? I don’t know, her demeanour seemed to suggest, I just don’t know. We are, she said, taking it one day at a time.

“As we lifted off for home, I found myself left with a single question: if they can’t cope with this; if it is, as she says, existing not living; what then?”


The documentary delves into the effect intense media scrutiny has had on former actress Meghan and how the couple are “buckling” under pressure.

In a preview clip of the programme, Meghan revealed her new royal life has been “a struggle” adding: “Not many people have asked if I’m OK.”

She replies to a question about her physical and mental health by describing the recent difficulties she’s gone through since becoming a royal and new mum to baby Archie.

Meghan says: “Look, any woman, especially when they are pregnant, you’re really vulnerable and so that was made really challenging.

“And then when you have a new born, you know… And especially as a woman, it’s a lot.

“So you add this on top of just trying to be a new mom or trying to be a newlywed it’s, well…”

Meghan continues: “Also thank you for asking, because not many people have asked if I’m OK.

“But it’s a very real thing to be going through behind the scenes.”


Bradby asks her: “And the answer is, would it be fair to say, not really OK, as it’s really been a struggle?”

At this point, Meghan looks visibly upset and replies: “Yes.”

She has now received a huge outpouring of support from more than 70,000 fans with the hashtag “WeLoveYouMeghan” the top trend on Twitter.

Bradby said of the documentary: “It will be for everyone to judge — you may even have seen the clip we released on Friday — but both of them in this trip came across as more vulnerable and bruised than the spoilt, petulant, arrogant and entitled caricatures that are sometimes tied to the public whipping post.”

The programme comes amid reports that the Duke and Duchess of Sussex are looking to build a new home in Botswana to lead a more private life and “focus” on Africa.

In the hour-long documentary, Harry expresses a desire to leave the UK and says Cape Town would also be “an amazing place to base ourselves”.

Although he later concedes such a move might not be possible.

Harry and Meghan are said to be planning a six-week break from from royal duties starting next month so they can enjoy some “family time”.

The couple are believed to be planning on taking baby son Archie to the US in November to celebrate Thanksgiving in LA, where Meghan’s mum Doria Ragland lives.

But the tot is due to spend his first Christmas at the Queen’s Sandringham estate in Norfolk with the rest of the Royal Family.

A royal source told The Sunday Times: “The Duke and Duchess have a full schedule of engagements and commitments until mid-November, after which they will be taking some much-needed family time.”

Prince Harry and Meghan Markle are planning to move to Botswana, it has been claimed
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Meghan said she has ‘struggled’ as a new mum
Meghan was interviewed as part of new ITV documentary Harry and Meghan: An African Journey


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